Why do I do this. groan

I started carving when I was 67 years old. Now its not a hobby thats easy to learn. Still three years later I take on caving patterns that are, well intricate. I did it with "whale spoon" in the summer, the bloody thing had me in desperation. Now I've don it again with a "deer spoon", once is a mistake twice is a no no. I'll post a photo up tomorrow.